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The music was loud, the scent of perfumes mingled with sweat in the air and the rush of adrenaline was amazingly adictive. Bodies moved to the beat; swaying, dropping, moving back up, and grinding against each other. The lights above themselves danced to the music, colorful, dimming, flickering on and off to the beat of the music. The place was crowded, but it wasn't suffocating, it was just right. The feeling was... It was almost euphoric. Not caring about anything or anyone. Being yourself and yourself alone. No worries of being judged or expected to do something. It was just you, the music, and dancing, not for anyone of with anyone. If a

She didn't know how it started, like all other times she just forced herself awake until the darkness finally won over and she fell into a tired sleep almost blissfully. The pain of staying awake for so long gone, and being replaced by the relief of finally letting her tired body rest. She started walking not knowing where to go and just following the white path that would always appear. The walk as always was endless, nothing but endless black everywhere and lighted white path being the only source of light.  She was used to this routine of sleepless nights until she finally fainted and was forced to sleep. Through this forced sleep however

"I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin, I must confess that I feel like a monster." I can't believe that I actually agree with it, it's from a song, one that I'm very fond off. I believe now everyone has a monster, and I do feel like there's a monster deep inside me. A powerful thing that forces my chest to constrict with pain, my throat to tightened up, making it hard to breathe and to swallow. There's just this something trying to crawl up and out of my body, wanting to finally be broken free, and I am well aware of it. My monster… The thing which I force myself to keep down, under tight chains and deep inside, forcing it